“Telling my parents that I was diagnosed with depression was the most courageous I have ever felt. It’s a reveal, there is no hiding and I think that is what is so amazing when you get to share your story. This is me raw, no hiding, not filter. I feel like the amazing part about being courageous is that you really have the opportunity to check in with yourself.”
In 2016, I was diagnosed with Major Depression. I took a year off of work, and I was able to re-evaluate what I really wanted to dedicate my time to, and how I wanted to express myself moving forward. I realized that dedicating myself to helping others to focus on self-development was really exciting to me. I believe that through figuring out who you are, by way of self-expression and checking into yourself, I was able to give that positivity to others and to myself.
It originally started when I wanted to have more positive messaging on Instagram. I just wanted to give something inspiring to people, that’s all it was at first. One evening I was trying to figure out the name and I said to myself “let’s just start it, who cares? I don’t know what I am doing, but that’s my intention”. The next morning, I woke up and I immediately thought CreateBeing. It felt like it was really the message I wanted to put out. It’s about being creative, being a human being, having the power to create and to become whoever you want to become. That’s how the name came to be. I am usually someone who would want to know what others thought, but I was so into the name that I didn’t care so I just went for it. That was three years ago. It didn’t really become a full-time gig until recently. Creativity to me is also problem-solving, so I love when people tell me they are not creative. I ask them if they solved a problem today, because that is creativity as well as expression.
Telling my parents that I was diagnosed with depression was the most courageous I have ever felt. It’s a reveal, there is no hiding and I think that is what is so amazing when you get to share your story. This is me raw, no hiding, not filter. I feel like the amazing part about being courageous is that you really have the opportunity to check in with yourself. I always have to ask myself if I am being honest with myself, because I am the one who wakes myself up and puts myself to bed. I’m the one responsible for me, so I have to take care of this person.
When I reflect on the tough areas of being an entrepreneur, for me it’s definitely navigating exactly what am I am trying to do and what my mission is. I’m always trying to figure out what the hell my mission is. I wrote it down in the beginning, but I am open to change and to the idea of it being flexible. I also don’t want to look at numbers and stats, because that’s not my thing. It’s also difficult to find the balance between being okay with that, but also knowing that I want to be able to feel financially secure. A lot of the time I am also not around a lot of people every day, so feelings of isolation have been tough for me as well.
What keeps me moving and inspired through the tough parts of running a small business is when I hear other people’s stories. That is what inspires me the most. That’s when I feel really lit up – when I hear the experiences of others, and how they came to be. Growing up, I was really interested in film and how someone could make something where you get to witness such a journey – that always interested me. Out of all the other jobs I have done, what I have always liked the most was helping people figure out what they wanted to do. I realized this recently because I learned that it’s stories that really connect us. I think when we try to be so different and unique we end up forgetting how similar we are, whether it’s in our passions or that we are all human beings.
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Written and illustrated by Stephanie Chinn @stephaniechinnart
Edited by Katie Bull @bull_katie
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